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Arreal

Wednesday, October 11, 2000 - 11:42 pm Click here to edit this post
I like intense conversations actually. They also energize me. I find that some people don't like it when others talk intensely about things. I know people who are intimidated by an intense conversation, no matter what the subject is.

I think there is no way to avoid a certain amount of discord in a situation like this. discord is okay, intesity is great. I like people. I like life. I sound elementary. hehe.

Roger_Ramjet

Wednesday, October 11, 2000 - 11:44 pm Click here to edit this post
Positive thinking--I may take it to a new level at times--internally only!

I don't figure it will improve to what it used to be till I am involved with someone. hasn't happened for quite awhile, and I've never been one to be lonely. I can be alone without being lonely. I miss what comes with a relationship, although don't NEED it.

That winning thing--I was over at a workmates place having slab of dead meat. (what we call it when we have a big steak, rice, and a couple bottles of diferent good wine--along with a "guy movie"--James Bond or Matrix is a guy movie to us). We were talking about Survivor, and the winning and the money. At the same time, without promting, we both said outloud to each other, "they don't get it--the most important thing isn't winning the million dollars--the most important thing is just winning!"

It's how we both feel about competition. A fair age difference between us, and I figure my intensity and drive to win and never quit are things he can reltae to with me. I'm the only person he knwos of my age with those traits so strong. He seems to respect me for that--and for other reasons I believe.

Arreal

Wednesday, October 11, 2000 - 11:49 pm Click here to edit this post
A slab of dead meat....ewwww gross, thanks for the visual. I'm glad it's just a guy thing.

Next time you do the guy thing, make a nice cheese souffle instead. :)

I undertand the competitive thing...and there's a topic.
With your feelings towards winning, how would you teach a child that winning isn't everything?

Roger_Ramjet

Wednesday, October 11, 2000 - 11:51 pm Click here to edit this post
Arreal--maybe that's why we end up having these most nights---along with not being asleep. Even over computer, to participate takes inensity and focus--well at least for me!!LOL

Seems like it's almost in person at times in terms of the feeling behind the words/topics/thoughts. I find that amazing in itself, and may be why this is so fun/successful (well successful as far as what I thought it would be like).

I don't know how much you get into it while sitting there. As well as getting energy, I find I also relax--both my body and my mind. Intensity and relaxing at the same time. I think that is why I am sleeping better. How does it affect you??

I also don't pay attention that there can be any number of people listening. I notice that there are some late posts on the wtaching thread. I guess since I'm myself, I don't mind anyone seeing it, and forget it's there!

Moondance

Wednesday, October 11, 2000 - 11:52 pm Click here to edit this post
Hey you guys did Xenia go to bed????

I want to talk to her about her being uncomfortable with me

Moondance

Wednesday, October 11, 2000 - 11:54 pm Click here to edit this post
I got up because I was restless and started reading again!

so I guess I could post it for her if she gets up???

Roger_Ramjet

Wednesday, October 11, 2000 - 11:58 pm Click here to edit this post
Hey, we cook it!! We are both pretty good in the kitchen or with a BBQ. A number of people think it's a little "funny" that we do this. Sometimes we just have cheese/crackers/wine. Those who call us "funny" (that would mean they think we are having a thing between us) say it's ok for two women, yet not for two guys. When theeir only answer to why is "well, because it just is" I always laugh!!

I have 3 sons (youngest about to turn 23)--I went through that issue with them!! It provided for some funny moments, some sad ones, some angry ones, and some very satisfying ones. That is a long topic!! LOL

Are you not a meat eater?? (curious becuase of thinking the lab thing was gross)

Moondance

Wednesday, October 11, 2000 - 11:59 pm Click here to edit this post
I wish I would have caught you before you turned in ...

Xenia, first, I completely understand why you would feel that way ... I am so sorry we didn't converse before we got in here... I have your transitional chart almost done but I put it aside until BB was done ... now this. I will send it eventually because I told you I would. (I think we even mentioned both of our schedules were booked) I didn't realize it would be uncomfortable for you so let me apologize. I hope you know that anything you told me was strictly between us... thats why I haven't said anything in here. I won't do that to a friend especially if it is personal. I do consider you a friend which kind of confused me when you seemed annoyed with me in here :)

Please let me know if you want to know anything about me ... I had already told you that there were a couple of things I could relate to and I still want to share that with you!... Okay, I am going to try to sleep again.

Nite All

Arreal

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:00 am Click here to edit this post
I'm with you there. I also get so wrapped up in it that I forget about it being posts for others to see, in the evening especially. A lot less going on to distract me. I am very easily distracted unless totally engaged. At night, the dogs are in their kennels, less people on the web...it is easier to talk openly and continuousaly for me. I can get totally focused in the evening. I like that.

I know what you mean about feeling like it's almost inperson, only difference is, no possibility of interuppting each other. lol But that is a good thing.

I find the feeling in here different than what I expected. I find that my mind calms down in here talking at night. My mind isn't bouncing around goin in 100 different directions. that is a good thing. As far as how it effects me sleeping, hard to say since I take meds for that reason alone.

so I can't consider how it would effect my sleep.

Roger_Ramjet

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:01 am Click here to edit this post
Hi Moon--you can join in if you'd like. Xenia did turn in for the evening. Did you want to soak in the tub and talk?? We can include you in our convo a of a couple different topics--they are fun!

How did you hear she is uncomfortable with you??

Arreal

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:03 am Click here to edit this post
(((Moon))) she went to bed a while ago.

Moondance

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:05 am Click here to edit this post
I was reading this post ... you guys are the only ones up so I got up tp get a drink ... I was restless and just sat down and started reading so I hope she will see this...

If she gets up ... will you tell her it's on this thread? ... We aren't suppose to e-mail... otherwise I would do that

Moondance

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:07 am Click here to edit this post
I feel terrible .. I can understand her feeling that way ... I just had no idea!

Roger_Ramjet

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:07 am Click here to edit this post
I knew that if I got into 1-on-1 or 1-on-1-3 in hear I'd have this happen. I have great focus when I want to, and knew I could getinto it with someone who had the same basic traits. There area couple in here like you and I.

It would be interesting to know what others think of these lte noght talks--of they really elieve it's us, or if they think we are just playing the game for the sake of the game. Since late night posts, there must be some feeling about it--unless they are cathing up on what we've done during the day! lol

Do you eat while you do this game???

Moondance

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:09 am Click here to edit this post
Thanks for the hug... I needed that... {{{Arreal}}} (((Roger)))

sorry to interrupt you guys

Arreal

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:10 am Click here to edit this post
I'm a meat eater...but of course:)

I eat meat...the term itself implies the animal is already deceased. No reason to waste words to show HOW dead it is. :)
hehehehehe

Roger_Ramjet

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:11 am Click here to edit this post
Moon, how did I know youd feel badly!!! Kind of weird how it all happened, isn't it. Completely innocent of any intentions--just a thing. That' swhat makes it so unfortuate to me. Both of you guys seem to care about namy things, then a innocent situation gets in the middle. I didn't know intill she talked about it tonight.

How are you doing?? You sound VERY sad. Sorry to hear about this.

Arreal

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:12 am Click here to edit this post
I will tell her Moon....don't worry until you have a chance to talk to her okay? {{{Moon)))

Roger_Ramjet

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:15 am Click here to edit this post
Moon, it's not a problem if you'd like to join in or if you want to talk about how you're feeling about this. We've been talking about how a couple three people can have these convos at night, but not during the day. Make use of the time and us if it would help!!!!! Honest!! I would not say so if I didn't mean it <<if it helps for you to believe it, I'l tell you that wasn't Roger talking>>

(((Moon)))

Arreal--I don't know--I think dead slab of meat is pretty fitting! LOL!

Moondance

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:17 am Click here to edit this post
I just wish I knew she felt like this ... the last e-mails we exchanged was a while ago and she said for me to take my time on the chart ... and i said great... after BB... then this happen... she is very special and I completely understand her feeling that way... and I know she didn't know me that well to know that anything would stay between us and i told her I had a lot to share with her... the timing sucked!

Arreal

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:19 am Click here to edit this post
I eat once a day like I always have. Nothing has really changed too much.

I have always liked jabbering on into the night, something about the night makes me feel more open, less vulnerable. I also tend to get a huge burst of energy at night, just as my head hits a pillow. Bad news. lolol

I don't give the outsiders much of a thought at all unless I'm talking to the camera or the redroom.

I hope they are enjoying the game like we are. I hope they aren't being to negative towards us. Then I come to the part of me that thinks it would be fun to be out there with that group of people, the voyuers. :)

Roger_Ramjet

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:20 am Click here to edit this post
Hey, Moon---we have a Host and interrogator--worth trying to go through them to see if you can talk about it off line long enought to get it squared away???? Unless you ask, the answer wil be no for sure!!

You miss 100% of the shots you don't take! <<basketball court>>

Moondance

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:22 am Click here to edit this post
I noticed though sometimes she gets up during the nite... if she does, please tell her to go back on this thread and read my posts... thanks you so much... I just hope we talk soon...
good night ...night owls... I have to be up in 41/2 hours...

Boy I am glad I read every last post in this game! I would not want to have missed hers

Roger_Ramjet

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:26 am Click here to edit this post
I haven't been eating at night and have been hear instead. Don't want to miss anything, plus no feeling of hunger!! LOL I eat a big munch though!

I don't mind them being negative so much as long as it's they don't like us being ourselves!! I can handle someone not liking that! I know you may feel a lot different about that..I just wait to see what they had to say--I'm sure it will be as interesting as what we are feeling in here.

I'd much rather be playing than watching. I have always liked being an active participant if possible to do.

Arreal

Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 12:26 am Click here to edit this post
I think she will probably understand Moon. You are a very sweet person and people can see that.

Like she said, she didn't know you that well so was confused or unsure about the trust issue. It's understandable for her to feel cautious and uncomfortable.

Being in this place certainly didn't allow much room for you two to talk openly about it.

I don't think she needed the added stress of the name calling and meaness of today. A nights rest and she may feel better about things in the morning.

I hope you can get some rest too MOON. (((Moon))) Wish I could really give you a hug.