Talisker

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Sunday, October 08, 2000 - 08:07 am Click here to edit this post
Talisker enters the Red Room confessional and sits down facing the screen.


The Interrogator says:

Good evening. Feel free to say anything you wish. Maybe something you didn't give voice to while talking with the other players, or some opinion you want to state.


Talisker says:

Wow! This is the redroom? What do I say? This is scary!!

Talisker pauses in thought, fidgets a bit, and then continues:

Since I don't know what my confessions will be used for, I have to say this is a bit disconcerting.

Do you want me to confess that last night when I was talking with Roger Ramjet, that I was thinking of putting the moves on him.


The Interrogator says: Anything you wish.

Talisker nods her head and says:

Since I don't know what my redroom thoughts are being used for, I'll just say hey man! Everything's cool! That's RogerRamjet guy is one cool dude and maybe before I leave the house I will get a piece of him. I mean, afterall, what else are men good for?

Got an invite to join in a discussion on gay issues. What can I say? The more lesbians there are, the more men that are left for me. Funny how things work out like that, isn't it??


Talisker pauses as if waiting for the Interrogator ro reply.

Talisker says:

Say, interrogator, what are you doing after the show??

The Interrogator replies evenly:

If that is all, we will talk again tomorrow.

Talisker nods, stands, and leaves the room.

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Sunday, October 08, 2000 - 07:20 pm Click here to edit this post
Talisker enters the Red Room and walks over to the screen.

She leans forward, trying to peer into the darkness through the screen. Then she sits down and says:

Interrogator?

The Interrogator replies:

Yes?

Talisker licks her lips and says:

I hope you aren't making me look bad or singling me out.

I asked some of my fellow BG if you had given them a hard time and so far, it seems like I am the only one that you are messing with. I told you some of my innermost thoughts. Are you picking on me for some reason?

The Interrogator replies sternly:

No.

Talisker blinks and says:

Ummm, ok.

After a moment of silence, she flutters her eyelashes towards the screen.
Getting no further response, she says:

Just don't want the people in boardland to get the wrong idea of me.

Then she stands up and leaves the room, blowing a kiss as she exits.

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Monday, October 09, 2000 - 02:08 pm Click here to edit this post
Talisker slinks into the Red Room. After sitting down she says:

Interrogator?


The Interrogator replies:

Yes?


Talisker smiles and runs her fingers through her hair. Then she says:

Um, I am sure Big Host thought he was doing us a favor by rewarding us with the links to Moon's sites and all but do you think he could reward us with something like link's to sites for some of the guys too? I mean, it's cool and all that she had two fan sites. She's a nice girl and probably has a lot of fans so I am happy for her. Next time, ask him to show the men too. You know, entertainment for us ladies.


The Interrogator says:

I will pass on your request. You may also post if directly for The Host to see as well, in the Game area.


Talisker nods her head and says coyly:

Interrogator . . do you have a fan site?


The Interrogator says sternly:

If that is all, we will talk again tomorrow.


Talisker pouts and leaves the Red Room.

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Monday, October 09, 2000 - 05:45 pm Click here to edit this post
Talisker ambles into the Red Room and sits down facing the screen.


The Interrogator says:

You have gotten to meet and know each other for a couple of days. Sometimes first impressions last the longest. Select two houseguests, preferably one you like and one you don't (or one you like the least) and tell me YOUR impression.


Talikser hesitates for a moment and then says:

Well, I really can't say that there is any particular boardguest that I like the least . . well, if I have to say something, then I will say ArReal . . doing that haggis thing for dinner was kind of mean-spirited. I mean, Roger was spicing up prime rib for all of us and she decideds to do the haggis thing. We are all still in the "bonding stages" and a nice meal among friends would have been really nice in breaking the ice.


Talisker giggles a bit and then says:

That lends me to believe it was intended to be mean.


Talisker runs her fingers through her hair, and gives a pouty glance toward the screen. She says:

Which houseguest is my favorite? Well, naturally, I would have to say RogerRamjet, because he is interesting to talk to.

It is hard to say which is a favorite - they are all great men, er boardguests. I am still checking them out to be perfectly honest with you.


After a few moments of silence, while Talisker licks her lips, the Interrogator says:

If that is all, we will talk again tomorrow.


She slides her very loose shirt off of shoulder and casts a sideways glance at the screen. Then she gets up to to leave the room.

As she exits she winks and says:

Interrogator? What are you wearing?

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Tuesday, October 10, 2000 - 06:48 am Click here to edit this post
Talisker swaggers into the Red Room and sits down.

She says:

Umm, Interrogator?


The Interrogator says coldly:

Yes?


Talikser licks her lips and says:

I think I want to change my mind on my favorite and least favorite Boardguest. . . yesterday, I wasnt' sure if I knew which of the guys I liked the best . . now I have a better answer.


The Interrogator interrupts saying:

That topic is closed. If you want to talk about those you like or dislike now, that is your perogative.


Talisker blinks in disbelief. She hesitates and then says:


I know that Xenia is not a man, but I think her and I think and agree on many things. She is just a little rough around the edges. Vikyn - I like him too . . he seems smart, I like what he posts, plus, he is Canuck, always a plus.

I know that yesterday I said I didn't like ArReal because of the Haggis but I realize that she was just trying to have fun with us. She is actually pretty cool.

I like Roger the least now. Sure, he is a great guy but, well, last night, I tried to lure him into a chat room. I wanted to whisper something in his ear but he just wasn't tempted.


Talisker gasps and looks shocked.

Not tempted by me? I confess, I was a bit taken aback.

Sure, I felt a little rejected then realized that well, he likes to live life in the safe lane and not break the rules. A girl like me likes action and lots of it. Men of action have to break some rules.

Interrogator?


The Interrogator says evenly:

Yes?


Talisker asks:

Do you ever break the rules??


The Interrogator says:

If that is all, we will talk again tomorrow.


Talisker pouts and leaves the Red Room.

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Wednesday, October 11, 2000 - 02:09 pm Click here to edit this post
Talisker strolls into the room and sits in the chair. She blows a kiss to the screen and says:

Interrogator?


The Interrogator replies cooly:

Yes?


Talisker sighs and says:

I was nominated! :(

Does it bother you that I may not be here for you after Friday evening?


The Interrogator states:

Nominations and Banishment is all part of the game.


Talisker pouts and says:

Who will you find to pick on when I am not here?


After there is no response, she continues:

I am surprised that so many of us are nominated. I feel like I am good company.

I was trying to get closer to Xenia last night but again, it so so difficult in this house.

It seems that the more Big H gets rid of rooms, the more some people add them back in. Meaningful conversations are becoming increasingly difficult when combined with limitations of time and the vast quantity of rooms.


Talisker smirks and says:

I have to confess, I do enjoy getting into certain kinds of discussions but can't really get into the play acting in the kitchen and bathroom that some people feel is necessary - simulated actions. I love the concept of the hot tub for relaxed intimate conversations, I like the living room as a hang out too for larger groups talks. And outside is nice for the feeling of getting away from everything.


The Interrogator says:

Do you have any thoughts on who might be banished?


Talisker shrugs her shoulders and says:

With so many nominated, it is hard to specualate who will be banished. I hope it is not me this time, I am enjoying myself here. I hope the views keep in mind besides myself, there are others who have obligations to the outer lands. Work and family sometimes take precedence.

Of the boardguests up for banishement, I am hoping that Mantastic and Xenia do not get the boot. I feel like their characters have more to offer then we have seen yet. Mantastic has got humor beyond compare and seems to have a life. Xenia, well, I would like to see her come to a certain understanding or peace in the house and get some enjoyment out of the experience before she leaves. She has much to offer us and I for one want to hear it.


The Interrogator says:

If that is all we will talk again tomorrow.


Talisker flutters her eyelashes and says:

Interrogator?

Do you want me?


The Interrogator says coldly:

If that is all we will talk again tomorrow.


Talisker pouts, then smirks and leaves the room.

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Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 09:25 pm Click here to edit this post
Talisker enters the room and sits down. She says in a sexy voice:

Not getting worried that you might lose me, are you? Don't worry, I will be sure to stop by and say a special goodbye to you if I do get banished.

Guess it is the middle of the night and I am still pondering the resignation of Mantastic. No explanation was given and I confess, I was a bit curious as to why he decided not to play. Felt like his work with us was not done. On the other hand, his gift in the old days was posting live humorous posts in the live feeds area around lunch time hours. I was worried he would not be around that much. Can't blame him if he was not able to be here as much as some of the others. I am not able to access the board from where I work so it seems like I am not with the board that much either. Truth be told, I am here a lot but it takes me a lot of time to get caught up on what the others are saying. If I recall, the rules stated that we only had to post at least once a day in our area. I think some people may have forgotten then when they attacked Mantastic.

Sure, there are things I have issues with but I just blow them off. Like, I still can't get into the weird play acting thing some of the guests get into. The whole, "what's for dinner?" thing didn't really get me a fuzzy feeling. I have difficulty being that silly. Wondering around getting ready for bed, is a wasted of bandwith - though I supposed it is necessary to "further the plot" or let someone know whos awake. Feels like you are talking to yourself which is kind of boring.

At first, it seemed a bit crowded in the house but as people get to know each other and figure out their way around to the various rooms and discussion topics, it is getting better. Last night's topic about advantages of the sexes was a decent topic. Many of us were posting at the same time so it seemed like we were having a conversation. Nothing to get anyone too pissed off about anyways. Still not sure about the whole "attacking" thing that goes on between some of the guests. I suppose some people get passionate about things.

Did you see the updated profile that Xenia posted? At the bottom, she said that her favorite sex toy is a "Red Rocket (8 inch)" vibrator that she has grown fond of. I have to confess, I don't have an 8 inch Red Rocket Vibrator.

Interrogator? You know I have grown very fond of you . . . maybe you can be
my favorite sex toy.


Do you know what I get passionate about? Would you like to tell me what you get passionate about?

Interrogator: If that is all, we will talk tomorrow.

Talisker blows a kiss and leaves the room.

Host

Friday, October 13, 2000 - 07:42 am Click here to edit this post
Talisker walks into the room and sits down.

Hi interrogator . . you can put your eyes back into your head, I am coming in here with a bit of a dilemna . . I should have come to see you last night, perhaps I would have slept better.

I have to say, so far, I have enjoyed playing this game. I am really getting to know my fellow game players and the past few nights have felt like we as a
group are getting down to a deeper level of closeness. Last weekend, I got some outside contact regarding my mother who had complications following surgery. Most of my good friends are time zone challenged and I found
myself looking for companionship in the way of some of my fellow boardguests.

I got lucky, a couple of them were up and wanting to talk. I wasn't sure if I could share the news about my mother with them but felt okay to just talk for a while to help take my mind off of my worries. In the course of talking, I felt the need to get closer to these people in order be friends. Being friends with people usually involves a certain amount of trust and giving away pieces of your heart. Sure, I told ArReal and Vykin something the other night. I felt that I needed to be able to trust someone and felt like they were worthy of my trust. I had exchanged a few emails with
ArReal in the outer boardland before names were selected and thought we were friends of sorts. I felt like I could trust her.

I have to confess interrogator that I have some regrets about letting my guard down so easily. Being worried is not really excuse for me to be so careless with my heart but I just couldn't help myself. I needed friends that night. I am guessing that ArReal has not had a lot of friends or maybe people in her life have not been good to her. Last night, in the hot tub,

ArReal felt the need to try to get me to confess what she thinks is a big secret . . I don't have problem with people knowing my secret. I have nothing to be ashamed of.

Last night, ArReal spent considerable energy taunting me and in a way it felt like blackmailing me to get me to talk about "Tali's Big Secret" I am guessing she got some sort of pleasure trying to goad me. I didn't really feel like being goaded. To be truthful, I was having a pretty good time just hanging out with the others for a change. Everyone was in a good mood but
ArREal just didn't want to let up. In the end, we all went our separate ways. I don't know if she decided to tell my secret or not. One secret - I DID not use Xenia's vibrator in the church fountain. :)

I would have fessed up but Interrogator . . . some of the key players were not there. May, Xenia, Zebulon, and Luke were all absent. Wouldn't be right to talk to some of the group and not the entire group of something that they should hear too. And, I have to confess . . . there is a part of me that does not like someone making the entire group feel bad because they feel like
they have a secret and want to force someone to tell all just to make themselves look smug. I just couldn't do it. If I had confessed what she thinks is a big secret (which, it really isn't), I would have felt like I had been manipulated.

My secret? No big deal . . if the group wants to hear it, I have no problem telling it - in the right circumstances. I really like these people and because of my secret, I have gotten to know some of them on a level that I may not have been able to achieve otherwise. I just didn't want to be used to further someone else's idea of pleasure. I will clue everyone in when the time is right - when it is right for me and my fellow houseguests. . .

There is a momentary silence . . .

Interrogator? Can I go now?

The interrogator nods and reluctently lets Talisker exit the room.

Host

Saturday, October 14, 2000 - 11:17 pm Click here to edit this post
Talisker enters the room, and looks suspiciously at the Interrogator.

Interrogator?

Did you get a sex change? You don't look the same. No offense, but I don't think you can use the same tactics to get me to talk like the other Interrogator.

Been feeling pretty down . . . not in the mood to read or write much.

The rules say I have to come in and grovel at least once a day so here I am.

Been feeling bad because my fellow BeeGees and Big H are feeling bad. I trusted a woman and as any man will tell you, that was probably a big mistake. Wasn't her fault, was mine. But, still feel bad for everyone else. Was thinking I could throw myself a pity party and call 1 - 800 - waah to invite everyone over. Oh well, I need to get over it and push on. Shut and deal as they say, eh

I guess I will never understand why people do the things they do. Life is just one long painful learning lesson I suppose. I suppose it is all in how you handle it, be they good times or bad. I heard there are some interesting discussions and I think a new challenge out there. Guess I should peek in later and see what is up and talk to the Bee Gee's. I know this affected them as much (probably more) then it did me. I feel bad for Vykin. I think he took a lot of hits on my behalf but stood up to the pressure. I didn't know him before this game (at least don't think I did) but like that he can handle himself in battle like he did.

I was pretty much ready to go to the board and hit the hot tub last night but got the word the polls had been reset and figured that the angry mobs wanted blood so just decided to decompress.

Left a message for everyone the net cam - I am not walking - they will have to vote me out. If they want or need that satisfaction, I won't deny them that pleasure. I just have not learned that one important lesson in life -- Trust no one. Don't think I ever will. Don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing, really.

I think about a discussion that a good friend of mine had with me. She is very much a church-going christian woman - everyone loves her, including me (but not in a homosexual way) - There is an old phrase - forgive and forget. I have it in me to forgive and forget (sometimes, the forget part takes a day or two maybe longer) but I don't hold grudges. I can get past just about everything. My friend says she can forgive but not forget. Can there be one
without the other? What does that have to do with aything? I have no idea . . just a thought that was going through my head. I think it was the trust thing. I have been know to let the same people hurt me over and over. I just keep letting them come back for more hoping that they will learn not to do it. I wouldn't count on me learning to not trust any time soon.

Interrogator - Been thinking that I maybe if I go out rollerblading it might help my head and heart to quit hurting so much. Not much I can do about my hands except hold a bag of ice like I did last night. Then maybe I will eat foods that are bad for me and maybe a few that are not so bad. I haven't really eaten anything in the past 2 days but have to say as hungry as I am, there is no way I would eat that haggis. I am so glad that I passed on that last week. That shit would have made me pewk.

Interrogator - see you later. Maybe groveling in here today wasn't so bad after all.


Talisker jumps up and exits the room with a wave.

Host

Sunday, October 15, 2000 - 02:20 pm Click here to edit this post
Talisker enters the room and saunters toward the Interrogator. She says with a smile...

Greetings interrogator!

Getting closer to banishment - how about a goodbye kiss? Pout ..

I'll miss you when I am gone along with most of the BeeGees. Don't get me wrong, I am not giving up. Just in case I don't make it back in here before I leave I wanted you to know that.

Heard that ArReal is trying to apologize/take back what she did to me - breaking a trust, etc. (do you have clipart for rolling your eyes?) Sorry, this is not a matter of forgive and forget. Is a matter of Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me. The hurts on this ran incredibly deep and are still hurting me. I still have trust issues here. To me, saying you trust someone is the best compliment you can pay them. Means you let down your guard to make them part of your life. Everything depends on trust. You can't love without trust. You can't be friends without trust.

Told Big H the other day to maybe send a banner "Tali Cries" to make the haters happy. But, didn't see it go over. See, I am not too old to learn lessons. Still happy about the others that went over. Think I know how Jamie felt now. (actually I liked Jamie) I know it probably looks like I am not out there on the board - trying to be though. Last night, went to the discussion about the challenge and looked like May and Zeb were flirting so decided to give them a little space (if you know what I mean) Didn't see where Big H answered the questions there so I went to bed. Any guesses on who else will strike up romances in there?

Events of the past few days caught up with me - Rollerblading totally wiped me out as I hoped it would do. I think if I go out for another round on the rollerblading circuit today - I might get myself back to normal.

Don't want you all to think that because I haven't gone in there to attack ArReal to take that to mean I have no backbone or don't care. Hurting people is not my style. Though, I couldn't resist having some fun with her name. Hey! Lets face it - she hurt me pretty bad - If by some miracle I don't get the boot, and her and I are in the house together for a few more days, I will probably kiss and make up - maybe even chase her around with Xenia's 12 inch black dildo just for fun. (probably won't trust her though) Feel like she seriously cut into my time with Vykin in the hot tub the other night though. Here I was trying to get fixed up and she's trying to hold my head underwater. No wonder nobody's seeing any action in the game!!

Okay Interrogator - see you - I will try to stop in for that goodbye kiss later!

Talisker gets up to leave the room, then turns and says...

. . . Can any man have ever looked finer then Christopher Walken in Brainstorm?? I don't think so!! Well, except you, Interrogator

Host

Monday, October 16, 2000 - 05:03 am Click here to edit this post
Talisker enters the room and takes a seat.

Interrogator - dearest . . .

I just went to the net cams to send a personal message to a good friend - no big deal and saw at the top of the posts that during the night Xenia had graced us with her presence again. Gotta say . . . I really try hard to like everyone or at least try to understand why people act the way they do. I just can't understand her.

Was she this angry and attacking in the old board days? I just can't remember . . . It just seems wherever she posts, you need to get a pooper scooper to clean up afterwards.

My attitude with her now pretty much reminds me of an old Far Side cartoon:

What you say to your dog "Now Scruffy, you need to stop doing that right now. If you do it again, you will be in so much trouble. . . . .

What your dogs hears: " Now scruffy, Blah, blah,blah, blah. Well, that is about how I am seeing Xenia. What Xenia says, "•••• this and •••• that and ••••• this and ••••• that and let me shove that dildo up your ass, etc.

What Tali hears is " blah, blah, blah, blah, blah . . . "

I hate to be that way, I really do . . . I figure if someone is taking the time to write something, they want others to see it/understand their message.

In the beginning, I really did want to hear what she had to say. Her and I actually agreed on a few things the first couple of days. Now, I am not so sure if I want to bother. I do think she is incredibly intelligent and she listed so many interesting things in her profile . I have not said a single unkind word to her but, she has added me to her list of people to dump on. Oh well, I am in good company.

Used to be around someone that yelled at the top of his lungs to whoever was in hearing distance. Didn't matter if you were the one who had upset him, everyone cringed. People ask about her on the board but I think they are hoping nobody has seen her. :( I think they are afraid of that black strap on dildo she has. I suppose as mean as she is, she probably has to use those a lot.

I am coming to grips with this whole ArReal thing finally. Not sure if I am ready to accept her apology or not - have to be honest about that. Haven't read it - but heard she had apologized. I can't accept an apology until I am ready to totally accept it and forgive. Once I do . . . . then I put it all behind me. I guess I need to come to grips pretty quick, eh? Banishment is about 24 hours away and realistically, one of us could be going. Course, we could get lucky and Xenia might leave instead. As angry as I was at ArReal, I think we could get along better in the house more peaceably then anyone and
Xenia.

Can you believe that Xenia told Vykin and I not to procreate?? As if! Interrogator! You know, you are the only one for me!!

Talisker jumps up and leaves suddenly.

Host

Monday, October 16, 2000 - 05:05 am Click here to edit this post
Talisker returns to the Red Room:

Hi Interrogator . . I know . . seems like I am in here a lot today.

I wish I could say it is your magnetic personality that has me in here but the truth is, I am still working things out in my head and felt like posting
again.

Looks like we are about to win our challenge about the guy and the book. I have to confess, I could not see into that one very well - I got hung up on it being an old book - luckily, I went back and read the question for the 1,000th time before I posted any stupid questions. ArReal actually came up with a question that got us a yes and steered us towards the big win. Seems like we were pretty stuck until that point. Sure, I can give her credit - she had the right answer or should I say question.

I am about ready to drop the whole nasty mess now . . . like I said earlier - it's a good bet I will be leaving soon and wouldn't want us to have this
between us. I am hoping that both of us are on the main boards here for a long time to come. Kind of my reason for leaving that little credit for her in the challenge discussion. If she picks up on it, she can say something and I will be sure to respond in kind. It's not that big of a house where we can't not talk to each other. And the truth is, I actually wouldn't mind if she stayed.

I still think we need a pooper scooper in there though. I think when Xenia posts (which so far she hasn't for a long time) I will do what I said earlier
except, I will post blah, blah, blah so people know I saw she posted but ignored it. Too much negative energy. Not that I am for all the hugs and stuff but I will take hugs over hate any day.

Interrogator? Do you need a hug??

Talisker leaves the room with a wave.

Host

Monday, October 16, 2000 - 05:06 am Click here to edit this post
Interrogator? Yep, it's me again . . .

Late Sunday night and I am sneaking away from the hot tub just for a minute.

ArReal picked up on the small hint I left her - credit for helping with the challenge. We've pretty much made up now and I feel pretty good about it. If I leave, at least it will be on good terms with her.

Good night interrogator!

Host

Monday, October 16, 2000 - 12:01 pm Click here to edit this post
Good morning Interrogator!

Looks like our time is nearing an end but don't be sad, I'm not. I had a pretty good time here and learned a lot that will help us later. So, before I go, I wanted to let you know some things from my perspective and some of the more interesting things I learned and experiences I had this past week.

My purpose here was to play The Game from a players point of view to see what we, The Staff could do to make it better for the players the next time. Last weekend, while things were pretty new - I looked at the other side to get a feel for what the viewers were seeing, thinking and writing. I mean, if nobody was paying attention, maybe we needed to make some serious adjustments on the game board. But, happily enough, it looked like things were going okay on both sides. I was thrilled to see the live feeds - kind of scary to be honest - they were so real!! Just so my absence wouldn't be noticed by the Jana's of the board, I left a post in live feeds. I actually did not realize that the other parts of the board were available to us - like the old BB stuff, etc.

In my outer board life, it is a big part of my job to secure networks and computers - look for vulnerabilities and holes, potential problems, preventions, etc. Probably about 90% of what I do as a moderator has been to tighten things up to make the board a happy, safer place for our posters. If I am doing my job right, I usually keep the bad spammers away before they can post or before too many see what they posted. I am actually pretty good at spotting a person posting under multiple names. Found a lot of that in the old board days.

I have not seen or done anything that would affect the way I play this game from a players point of view. I did not make posts (good or bad) in the game discussion area to put a slant on any other player or do anything to sabotage the game players. Protecting the integrity of this board is very important to me. I was not there to get dirt on any players or look for people not playing by the rules. I was just there to play. Why did I say who I was? I couldn't post in the
discussions as Ryder/Tali when they were not who I really am. I had to post my own experiences, not something made up. The only thing being Tali did was let me be a little more flirty then I normally am.

That being said . . here are a few things I have learned that I want to pass on. (I should mention for those who don't know this - as soon as the game started, Big H sent an email to all the players with the rules - we are not to contact Big H except to let them know we want to resign from the game. - I can't contact Big H as Ryder/Tali - but can contact Big H as Gail from my regular email account or posts in the admin area if there is an adjustment that needs to be made) The live chat was a nice gesture but in reality, it totally sucked for us. The 10 of us all showed up (along with 25+ others) but none of us got to talk to each other. I saw it as an hour of frustration, people coming and going, Hi there _____, Hugs to ______ How are you ______? And Good bye_________

Did anyone else get anything different? Oh, yeah, someone named whit4 you throwing hugs and kisses at Roger the entire hour. Seriously, I was able to see Vykin was having trouble reading certain colors (is he colorblind? Don't know) and I tried twice to tell him the way to look at the view B/W but he couldn't see my messages with all the traffic. None of us got to talk to each other. I told Big H. Think that is going to be a change for the BG in the next chat? Private chat with BeeGees, Big H, and a recorder. Is that sabotage? Is that playing to cheat? I don't think so. Trying to make things more meaningful for the players - get them talking to each other on the game - not outside. Think about it - the only way they can talk is through posts on board. Sometimes, it is slow and painful.

I emailed Big H last week to tell them get rid of the rooms!!! Nobody could find anyone. Seemed like you'd see Roger wondering around room to room talking to himself all the time. (I didn't find that entertaining - found it painful) I have to say with all the rooms gone - there is much more interaction - less hide and go seek. Was that cheating or sabotage? Don't think so. My next suggestion would be to move a bunch of the posts in those existing rooms to archives. Is a pain to scroll down. Hint: Also - maybe make it archive longer - with all the posts it is too hard where you left off - have to search through too many archives.

I also emailed Big H and begged to not banish 2 people this round - with Mantastic gone (hope you are doing okay Snave) taking out two more would be way too much. I have no idea what Big H was planning but would like to think that me saying something from a player's perspective made a difference. But, with all those crazy rooms gone, we were all finally talking and getting to know each other better. Big H doesn't know what it is like in there, I do. Was that sabotage? Nope - I don't think so.

Last weekend, it took me a day and a half to get RogerRamjet to get with host to find out what was the problem with his email address - I knew he had not answered interrogator. Turned out the problem was Big H had given me and the Interrogator the wrong address. Had to practically club the guy over the head to let him know there was a problem! Don't think it was cheating. Thought it was helping!

Anyone who thinks there is no outside contact in this game is crazy. There is probably more going on outside the game then there is inside of it. The only people I have any board contact with are the staff, or other game players (except for Jana's email the first night to my Gail account letting me know who the players were). I know that there are people contacting boardguests via email and other means. I think I read
somewhere yesterday that ArReal posted that she has not had any contact from other people since Thursday night. (note - this is not to tattle - that is not my style) This is to say, there are people (in the outer board) who think they are well meaning contacting the boardguests. My message to you is let the players play the game. Many of the players have no outside contact and are having a pretty good time. You wouldn't believe what I have learned from some of the other houseguests. In my email, I got a copy of the fake NY Times article the same day it was posted. I totally believed it and was terrified that I was going to find that it said I slept with Roger Ramjet that first night. (I found out from Ryn that is was a hoax) What I am saying is that I have probably had less contact from the outside then many of the boardguests. The staff has done everything possible to shield me from anything coming up in the way of challenges, discussion, etc.

From a player's perspective, one of the things I am going to suggest to Big H is that next time (if there is a next time) that the applications get emailed in. Then, make the selections and create the new user names
from there. I mean, get real - everyone knows everyone on the game board - talk about a no brainer. Jana sent me an email within hours of the game starting identifying each player and their identity) I hadn't even started thinking about who was who. Next time - maybe set it up so each player has a hotmail email address (like our beloved interrogator account) so the players can't email each other the first night, can't IM each other either. Everyone knows who each other is. Kind of silly when you think about it. Many of the players wanted new names so they could be themselves without pregame prejudices. Idea was good - next time - don't announce the players in advance. But, by keeping it more anonymous, maybe will keep the players from getting so much outside contact and make them interact more with each other on the board.

I noticed that Xenia said some shit in my Tali folder - pretty much all I saw was a series of blah, blah, blah, blah and skipped over that. I have plenty of friends in computerland but NONE that I chat with - strictly email. Just started the ICQ thing with a couple other moderators during the last month of the show - made it easier to get 2nd opinions on really bad posts - send alerts, etc. The pain in my hands makes chatting incredibly painful so I had to make myself invisible to many of my friends. Hopefully after my surgery the end of next week, and a healing period, I will be able to chat more. (Unless Mr Big H keeps me too busy with other things - heard there is a new show that will keep us hopping - anticipate many new accounts?) (Have a few ideas to run by you regarding that - passwords to read, etc - need to lock the board down more - will get with you later)

And, not sure why Xenia would say something about how pitiful it was I was reaching out to strangers I had known less then a week. Maybe to her they are strangers - but to me I've known many people on this board for months. Go back a take a peek - see who started the BBFC Group Hug folder - I started it - a week before the end of the show. I knew many of our group would be going back to their lives - and, they did - wanted to let them know I appreciated them before they took off. When the show ended, we had 4,000 accounts - as of last night, we were down to about 1100. Don't know about you guys out there but I really like the people on this board a lot.

Good or bad/ love them/hate them - they are the personality of the board. Not strangers to me. Shit, don't know about you - but this is pretty much the only place I go on the net. Even with the BB Show over.

Today is my last day here (in the game) - I am pretty sure of that - Big H wouldn't have reset the polls if that was not going to be the case. No big deal. I can tell you, it is much different in the game then you would think. You do feel pretty closed off from the rest of the board and you worry what others are saying about you. I more then likely won't bother reading the game discussion board after I get the boot for a while. As a moderator, I remember a lot of mean things people said about the houseguests and it is my feeling that because the polls were reset our little game is no different. I got the message from Big H or Mr Big H Friday evening that said people were pissed and wanted a chance to get me out. I take that to mean the mobs had formed and there was no turning them. I sent Big H a banner idea but she didn't use it. Tali Cries - figured that would get the haters foaming at the mouth.

To this, I say I have one regret - Friday, much of this was unfolding while I was at work and could not see the board. I wanted to be able to tell my fellow board guests on my terms and in my own way. I left 3 hours early so I could get home. Unfortunately, the word did not get to Mr Big H in time who had answered their questions and set up the. "What do you think about Talisker folder". Since nobody had even heard my side of the story, but they had 50+ posts in there, I figured it was too late to bother. I made my two posts anyways. It really was too late - not just for the beegees but for the viewers. Folks, I saw this during BB and I am certain it happened here. Always, always, always get both sides of a story before you decide anything. If you do otherwise, you will always regret it.

Later that evening, I got a message from Mr Big H saying that the viewers were upset and looking for blood. I had just finished writing up a message for him when I got a message from Big H saying the polls had been reset because viewers said I was a cheater. Whoever said that, live with it. I am not nor have I ever been that. Hopefully, I will never see your messages. In the case of Karen, I did my best to keep her from seeing the hate. In the case of Brittany, I did the same thing. Same with George, not necessary with Cassandra and the best I could without being noticeable with Jamie (to Jamie's fans, I apologize - there was so much there that it was not possible to clean it all up). I am only sorry that I am not out there to take care of me. Hence, this overly long RR post. Hopefully answer questions some may have had.

Tonight is banishment night and ironically, I feel that either myself or ArReal will be one of the ones to go. I say ironically because both of us really want to be there and play the game. Not sure how the "viewers" saw this last night but, ArReal and I basically "kissed and made up." It was actually a very heartfelt moment for me. Hope it was for her too. If I get the boot, I hope that ArReal's fans will follow her example and and by the same token, if I have any supporters, please follow mine. Forgive and forget! We are just players in a game.

Would like to say again - to the person who sent the banners for me - Thanks! At first, I thought it was Big H - she knew I was pretty sad about this whole situation. But, I found out that is was
not Big H or the staff - it was just a nice person with a big heart out there. I know who you are and I will thank you via email after I get sprung. (note: I didn't get that info from the staff either) Would also like to thank the person who sent me the *ruffle* in my email this morning. *sniff* *hug* Thanks! Nothing bad can happen to be today because of that special something.

Lastly, my thanks to our incredible staff here at the TV Fanclub - we really do have a great crew working behind the scenes!! I don't know if you all know it but none of us gets paid for this - including Big H and Mr Big H. We do it all for free because we like it and feel like we are providing a valuable service to the people who are our friends here. We also like the challenge and day to day torture of keeping "Neil's Monster" running smooth.

Well alrighty then!! Interrogator? I think you are a babe!! You haven't seen the last of me!