Luke

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Sunday, October 08, 2000 - 10:31 am Click here to edit this post
Luke enters the Red Room confessional and sits facing the screen.

He smiles and says:

I guess I'm in the redroom...

The Interrogator says:

Good evening. Feel free to say anything you wish. Maybe something you didn't give voice to while talking with the other players, or some opinion you want to state.


Luke nods and says:

Man, what a day... what a week! I broke up w/ my boyfriend of one year this week... actually, today we spent most of the day on the phone, and so therefore I didn't log on. It was cool to get a welcoming from the other house guests when I arrived. I need to re-read the posts on the homosexuality thread. I guess I'm the only gay person in here... but it seems that everyone is pretty much open minded... I think... Ugh I want to say so much more... want to stay up all night actually... but tomorrow is another day from hell workwise, and my eyelids are shutting already...

I'll check in tomorrow...


The Interrogator says:

We will talk again tomorrow.

Luke leaves the Red Room.

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Monday, October 09, 2000 - 05:43 pm Click here to edit this post
Luke enters the Red Room and plops down into the chair.


The Interrogator says:

You have gotten to meet and know each other for a couple of days. Sometimes first impressions last the longest. Select two houseguests, preferably one you like and one you don't (or one you like the least) and tell me YOUR impression.


Luke immediately says:

Man, I can't believe that there are still some people in this world like Arreal and Himay...! I guess I'm getting a little too used to the open-mindedness of Northern California... I gotta remember that not all places are as okay with the whole gay thing as people are here... Well, I don't really think that Arreal and Himay are not "okay" with the gay thing... it's just that some of those religious comments were like... kind of archaic thinking, in my opinion.

It was kind of cool that Xenia said that I probably have delved "into the Bible/homosexuality issue many times before." Hehehe... she was pretty much on target (I have a degree in religion). My sixth sense tells me Himay might have more self confidence issues, though... I hardly know her... But offhand I guess that's what came to mind when she got defensive. I'm just kinda surprised that more negative stuff came from the girls than the guys... (but then I think there are some guys that haven't posted yet.)


Luke hesitates as he ponders the rest of the question. Smiling, he says:

I want to get to know Vykin, Moondance and Mantastic more... Vykin and Mantastic because of the few posts they have put so far, as well as their profiles, they seem like cool guys. Moondance is awesome... First reaction: the kind of friend you'll have for years to come.


He chuckles to himself and says:

That's pretty much all I have to say for now... This is an awesome experience.


The Interrogator says:

Very well. We will talk again tomorrow.


Luke smiles and waves as he leaves the room.

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Thursday, October 12, 2000 - 09:30 pm Click here to edit this post
Luke rushes in and takes a seat:

Hello host!

I just realized that I have a major appt tonite that I'm late for... I've been contributing to the boards all day, but I gotta take off... I'm going to log on tonite when I get back, and that's when I'll finish my red room post... but it might be after midnight... so it is coming!

(You can ask Roger... I told him right now in the hot tub that I was going to join him tonite in a late nite convo...)

This game is awesome!

Luke jumps up and rushes out of the room.

Host

Saturday, October 14, 2000 - 08:48 am Click here to edit this post
Luke enters the Red Room and sits down. He says:

Man, I don't know what kind of a day this has been... Right now, it's 2:fu*king-30 in the morning on Oct. 14 (sorry host, it's past midnight) and my eyes are closing... I was hoping to join in a late nite convo with at least Roger, but even he went to bed hours ago... what a bummer...

I am still unsure if Arreal left or not. I'm unsure how to feel about Tali being Gail, a moderator. I just know that I was pretty close today to leaving this house... and then sending another banner... something to the effect of: "Snave was right!" I'm glad I left when I did earlier this evening... You know--let 'em argue, bicker, make accusations, and apologize... I know I can honestly say I'm having a good time here... so let 'em go off on each other...

I like Roger... he's cool... he's probably going to be big competition for me--but I don't give a f*ck... Moon and I have bonded... not much needs to be said on that cuz we get along well. Vykin--Hmmm I'm wondering what he wanted to ask me 'bout the Philippines... he treats me cool, though. I was shocked by Xenia's comment today that she has liked me from the beginning... I guess she has just a weird way of showing it... but she did admit it's understandable for me to have negative feelings towards her considering her interactions with the other houseguests... Tali/Gail, hardly know her.

Arreal.... hmmm... Arreal... i dunno. I wish she'd stay.... if for anything because I'd like to see her show to the others, and to the outside world, that she's stronger than this stupid chain of events... that she can take a beating, and still continue on... oh well... if she leaves... she leaves...

I'm exhausted... today was exhausting... sorry this post is so short and so dry... but really, that's exactly what today has been like.

Interrogator: If there's nothing further, we'll talk again soon.

Luke nods and exits the room.

Host

Monday, October 16, 2000 - 05:11 am Click here to edit this post
Luke enters the room, and takes a seat.

Good evening Interrogator:

I put a lot of my feelings into my living room discussion with Roger tonite... I definitely feel a connection with him. He's a mixture of one of
my best friends and one of my mentors from college. If I were looking at this game from the standpoint of competition, I would consider Roger as the biggest threat to winning... But the way we've been interacting in here has long since displaced winning as my primary goal in here...

I felt really bad that I couldn't participate more this weekend... believe it or not, I'm sitting at my desk right now, and it's 2 in the morning... by
the way, this is my OFFICE desk, and i live 20 minutes from work... we have a T1 connection here, so i wanted to take advantage and get caught up... it was definitely worth it...

I printed out most of the posts that i missed and will be catching up on those by tomorrow... i was soooo shocked to be browsing through the posts and reading Xenia actually in a good mood! I haven't read all the
conversations yet, but it almost seemed as if she was addressing Vykin as Gibblets--but almost as if it were a term of endearment! hahaha!

i kinda feel like the "dangling" house guests... i told that to moon and roger tonite... dangling not in the sense that I don't feel that I fit in (everyone basically fits in because we're all so different), but rather in the sense that i haven't been directly involved yet with any of the outbreaks in the house... i'm not sure if i would want to be at the center
of a conflict either, but i do feel as if i have some catching up to do--just with getting to know everyone. I mean, from day one, people like May, Xenia, Vykin... their personalities were already quite outstanding early on...

well, those are my only thoughts at this late hour... I have to get on the road still... and hope i don't fall asleep on the way! i'm eagerly waiting
the chats tomorrow night...

and thanks for your honesty, lisa and neil, with friday's mixup... :)

Luke exits the room.

Host

Wednesday, October 18, 2000 - 05:08 am Click here to edit this post
Luke enters the room late Oct.16 and takes a seat:

Hi...

I'm barely awake right now, but I thought I'd pay my daily RR visit right now...

I really was expecting Xenia to get the boot... Tali came as a complete shock to me... i guess that goes to show that everyone out there probably didn't like the idea of a "mole" planted inside here.... and so they voted Tali out first instead of Xenia.

I can't remember who exactly made the post regarding Xenia, but I'm in agreement in that Xenia's behavior is so extreme now, it's really starting to seem fake. perhaps to get attention? I mean, the door is always open. She can leave any second she wants to. She didn't even answer the host's question, "Well why didn't you just walk out".... Xenia and I exchanged some words in the living room soon after she created her 'padded cell', but other than that, we haven't crossed each other's paths. I'd like to leave it like
that. i think i can contribute more to these boards through my conversations with roger, moon, may, arreal... rather than participate in xenia's name calling with zeb and vyk....

Well, I'm talking with Roger now... about getting him to be the one to go into the outside board. I like Roger... I'm undecided as to whether I view him more as a mentor, or as a very good friend (but of equal status)... I don't think it really matters... it's just that he reminds me so much of certain people in my life who have been very important to me... guess I have really good transference with him then...

There have been a lot of tumultuous stuff going on in my life, which has made it kinda difficult to be in here... the first was regarding my friend's brother passing away... Just tonite alone i ended up getting half a dozen phone calls from all my friends deciding what to do... the preparations that need to be made... the songs we will be singing for the funeral... And then besides this stuff, i've been having roommate problems, and may actually have to start searching for a new place to live... Ugh! It was really hard to concentrate today... that's why i crashed so early tonite (like 9:30), but I wanted to grab a late night convo with roger... so when i woke up at 1am, I thought... well, why don't I log on... :)

I'm gonna get back to chatting with roger... I'm telling him that he's a "stabilizing force within the household". I hope he accepts the challenge.

Interrogator: If there's nothing further, we'll talk again soon.

Luke leaves the room.

Host

Wednesday, October 18, 2000 - 05:10 am Click here to edit this post
Luke enters the room on Oct.17 and says:

I really wanted to spend some time this evening chatting with roger... but by the time xenia got done with her interview session, my eyes were shutting...it seems that when I'm logged on during the day, hardly anyone seems to be in the house... i guess i'm the only one who can make use of regular "working" hours to post on the board... actually, it's pretty funny how little of my "work" in the real world i've been getting done since this game started!

i'm not looking forward to nominations, but i do have 1 out of the three picked out... actually, i have probalby 2 already decided... i'm still deciding on a third... one is obvious, because all she talks about is wanting to leave... and the other i chose simply because i know him the least...I'll probably end up posting my reasons in these red-room visits, and when i submit my nominations, i'll just put names...

I'm glad roger was the one chosen to go out into the outside boards... something tells me he'll probably win the game... moon will probably last out pretty long as well... i didn't hear too much from may today... and vyk and zeb as usual... funny, but the one person i seem to bond with the most in here is roger... i actually look forward to talking with him at night... he has a really attractive personality... if he weren't straight, i might actually..... hmmm... well... maybe i shouldn't go down that road... :) he's a good guy... and obviously straight...

ugh my eyes are closing... tomorrow and thursday i'll be busy with the funeral stuff... I'm going to log on at nite, though, and possibly have a conversation with roger if he's still up... maybe moon as well...

g'nite, all!
Luke jumps up and leaves the room.

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Thursday, October 19, 2000 - 09:54 pm Click here to edit this post
Luke strolls in and sits in the chair.

Okay... this is my wednesday night Red room post....

SSSHIIIITTTT!!!! Why was I sooo stupid to actually think that... "oh well, i bet things are pretty mellow on those outside discussion boards..." Whoa! Himay disses Luke? What the heck is that all about? Hmmmmm I don't think I actually feel anything for Himay right now... She's like kinda neutral with me... It was actually a choice between her and Zeb on who to nominate... i guess I chose zeb because I've talked with him less... but I don't think I've had any run-ins with May since that homosexuality thread... I wonder if it had anything to do with that? And then Xenia backstabbing in RedRoom?

OMG... Now I'm starting to wonder what all those redroom posts are saying! Shit... they're even organized by name! I guess I totally got this false senses of security that... well, we only talk with each other in here... there really doesn't seem like there's anyone else involved in this game besides us ten...

W-R-O-N-G!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just can't imagine what else May would diss me about if it weren't for that initial homosexuality thing... I mean... like have we really talked at all about anything of importance? But man... it's like... Don't even start quoting the Bible to me--and of all topics... don't EVEN think about talking to me regarding gays!!!!

...hold up Luke... it's just a game!

But it can't be that... I mean... if there are phobic people in here, I'd at least assume they'd have the balls to continually confront me about it... that homosexuality thread ended a while back... hmmm... maybe it's something totally unrelated, and it's going woooshhhhh flying right over my head without me even noticing like some dumbass...

But onto another topic--

It was totally cool to get that banner... i was feeling kinda relieved after this funeral vigil service that I attended tonite... (my comments posted in the DEATH thread)... and then I log on... Whoa! what an uplift! If any of you who sent that are reading this post... THANK YOU! and I'm sending you a huge hug {{{{hug}}}}(Unless you're an eligible gay bachelor, in which case I'd give you an extra-long hug and my phone number! hehehe)

I think we're totally gonna start getting on each other's nerves a lot more in the next couple of weeks... if i make it through these nominations... well, i dunno... it'll also depend who else makes it through the nominations... Watch Xenia not get banished and someone like roger get banished... AAAHHHHH!!!!! I'd go stark-raving mad!

Speaking of Roger... He is a really cool guy. I didn't say too much to him today... we didn't have a one-on-one convo like we did a few days ago... but i read all his posts... I love the way he "works" Xenia, because he can totally see right through her and she knows it! Xenia would be stupid to pick a fight with Roger... If she and I were to start getting into a catfight, I think I'd definitely lash out more than Roger does... and use more of my fangs and claws rather than my brain... but she's the only one that has an abrasive enough personality that I could potentially see myself getting ino a serious conflict with...

you know, i've decided... i really like roger... if he were gay (and single), i'd totally go for him... he would definitely fit my "dream" partner, like i described in that thread... (with the exception of the physical qualities--i have absolutely no idea what he looks like). I say
this cuz i know that if he were gay, he'd have no problem being out and proud... i wouldn't doubt that for a second... he has a lot of passion for life... and honestly cares for everyone in here... those qualities of honesty and compassion really turn me on...

NEIL!!!! why didn't you pick another gay guy to be in here with me?!?!?! Hehehe...

i think this has been my longest redroom post yet... this is an exciting place to be for me right now... i wouldn't change it for the world!

G'nite all!
Luke exits the RedRoom

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Saturday, October 21, 2000 - 07:01 am Click here to edit this post
Luke saunters into the Red Room and slides into the chair. He blinks and says:

Tonite's chats were weird.

I didn't know what to expect from Xenia. I know she has been volatile, and today there was a lot of confrontation.

I felt bad for Moon--I could almost taste her pain when she left Xenia such a dry goodbye... "Good luck, Xenia! Take care." That was it ... I know Moon must have been really disturbed by what Xenia posted before she was banished. :(

But then, what threw me for a loop was when I clicked on what apparently is Xenia's homepage at wendywallace.com. What a website! Talk about heavy-duty recovery type of stuff. That's kinda why I posted on the Internet Camera that I think that there's so much more to Xenia than meets the eye.


The Interrogator says:

Is there anything else you would like to discuss?


Luke smiles and says:

I guess the outsiders think that I'm a nice guy... I thought that was kind of comical that Muzzy in chat said, "You could be next, Luke!" Hehehe... that was the last thing I heard from him before I put him on ignore. :)

The way I figure it, I was only 3% behind Zeb, so I probably won't make it through next week's banishments. So I definitely intend to really get closer to people this week, especially now that this funeral and my ex-boyfriend are behind me... (well, at least far back enough so that I can ignore them).


The Interrogator says:

Is there any Board Guest in particular that you would like to know better?


Luke nods and says:

I really want to get closer to Roger most of all. He's the one who I think would win... and I'll admit... also has a personality that is kind of attracting me. I read through his living room conversation with Xenia (either last night or 2 nights ago). The man is a really deep person. :)


The Interrogator says:

If that is all we will talk again later.


Luke leaps to his feet and blurts out

My stomach is yelling "feed me!"


He bolts out the door.

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Monday, October 23, 2000 - 08:00 am Click here to edit this post
Luke saunters into the Red Room and jumps into the chair. He grins and says:

My redroom visit for the weekend. : )


The Interrogator says:

As you know by now, ArReal decided to quit The Game last night. Was it a surprise to you? What are your thoughts and/or feelings about it?


Luke shrugs and says:

In all honesty, I don't think that ArReal should have left. I commend her, though, on being true to what she believed in. From the beginning, reading her application and everything, she did seem to me as the most enigmatic person. I still don't have a definite opinion on her ... not like I do about all the others that are left in here ...


The Interrogator coldly says:

Does that mean you were surprised?


Luke blinks and says:

Yes.


The Interrogator says:

Is there anything else you would like to discuss?


Luke nods his head, smiles,a nd says:


Okay... over these past 2 days, I've really gotten closer to Roger, Moon, Vyk, and May ... Anyone who will be leaving after this point will definitely affect me a lot ...

Well, I'm still deciding on May ... we treat each other so nicely, but then that one thread really threw me for a loop: "HiMay disses Luke"... I'm still confused as to what that's about...

I'm even surprised I'm getting to joke around more with Vyk... I don't think it will be easy for me to nominate anyone...


The Interrogator says:

So you and Vykin have a good relationship?


Luke smiles and says:

I'm glad Vyk is very open. He reminds me of a lot of the straight friends that I have. Pretty much open minded... but definitely glad they are straight.

Strange, but I have a sneaking suspicion he'll probably nominate me... simply because I don't think he'd nominate Roger or Moon (Roger being very cool, and Moon being so attractive)... and we all have to nominate more than one.

Will I nominate him? I don't know... i don't know yet whether to go with nominating the most likely to win--Roger, or the one I know the least--May or Vyk ... or simply nominate Moon, because she probalbly won't get any other nominatinos.

This is so confusing. :(


The Interrogator says:

Have you found a difference in The Game since the last round of banishments?


Luke nods his head and says:

I think that without Xenia in the house, the environment is definitely more conducive to getting to know one another. There was so much attention drawn to her because of outspokenness ... I'm not sure we would have lasted as long as we did playing truth or dare if Xenia were still here, simply because there would have been some conflict.

I'm sad that I couldn't get to know Xenia more, but I am glad that there is a more calm environment within the house.


The Interrogator says:

If that is all we will talk again later.


Luke jumps to his feet, grins, and heads out the door.

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Wednesday, October 25, 2000 - 07:38 am Click here to edit this post
Luke ambles into the Red Room and sits down.


The Interrogator says:

Nomination time is closing in. Any thoughts you would like to share?


Luke sighs sadly and says:

Okay... I'm not looking forward to nominations... Period.

3 people? How can I nominate 3 people? there are only four people to choose from unless I nominate myself (which I don't plan to do...) But then again, if I have to nominate 3 people out of 4 to choose from, I could simply choose 1 person whom NOT to nominate ... that could be easier ...


When it was my turn to ask Roger a question for Truth (in truth or dare), I read his profile, and tried to figure out his greatest weakness and ask him a question on that.

He spoke a lot of winning, both in his profile, and in the house with us. So I asked him what his biggest loss in life was. I kind of regretted asking him... until he reassured me that it was a good--and fair--question.


I wish I could chat with Vyk more... he's actually beginning to remind me of a lot of straight male friends that I have (did I say that in a previous red room post?). One friend of mine in particular has the same type of sense of humor and imagination that Vyk does.


Moon... Moon is my sister. I really feel it. She's not just like a sister, she's my sister ... the sister I never had. I want to hold off telling her all this until after the game, because I don't want her to have any prejudices against nominating or not nominating me. I think I could, and will probably, spend hours talking with her into the night when I go down and visit her. She's from my neck of the woods--southern California!!!


Luke stops and thinks for a moment and then continues:

May... hmmm... I feel most distant from May. I think our views on a lot of things clash ... but we've handled ourselves well about it. I was very careful to hold my tongue when she spoke of her political beliefs during truth or dare about president Clinton (since I am probably her complete opposite when it comes to politics! :) ).


The Interrogator says:

If that is all we will talk again later.


Luke smiles and says:

I need some rest.

Thanks for the banners everyone. This game is going by sooo quickly!

Buenas noches!


Luke gets up and leaves the room.

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Thursday, October 26, 2000 - 06:25 am Click here to edit this post
Luke wanders into the Red Room and slumps in the chair. he sighs and says:

Okay... redroom for wednesday... my sick day...


The Interrogator says:

Is there anything particular on your mind?


Luke chuckles, coughs, and says:

First of all, as the days progress, I'm starting to see the way Roger kinda "melts" for Moon. hehehe. I think it's cute. Obviously, Moon is the most attractive person in here, and Roger is always so ready to apologize if he thinks he might have offended Moon in any way. Even when he's joking!

Hee hee hee... As I'm typing this email, Moon just said she'd turn in and let Roger and me chat, but this was Roger's response: "Moon, you are more than welcome to stay and chat!! The more the better, as long as you want to. Please feel welcome to stay!!!! "

I think that's cute, cuz that's the way I act when I have a crush on a guy. I want to make sure that nothing I say would offend him in any way... :) Unfortunately, I don't see Moon that attracted to Roger, other than as a close friend.


The Interrogator says:

Is there any other insights you would like to share?


Luke coughs, nods his head and says:

I was surprised what Vykin wrote tonite. He said "Luke - In real life, I would probably like you as a friend. Wouldn't matter that you are gay. You can take a joke and not take offence. Stop Fretting about the Ex!" Hehehe. That was cool. Although I don't see Vykin as open minded as someone like Roger, I do see him as a man of integrity... and willing to try and understand viewpoints that he is unfamiliar with. And I like joking around with Vykin, and I like to think that the fact that he jokes around with me is because he feels comfortable enough with me to do so.


The Interrogator says:

Is there anything about May and Moondance you would like to share?


Luke sneezes. He grins and says:

May. Hmmm ... well, again, I should say that I think that May and I are the most opposite of the 5 of us that are left. I thought it was funny that she chose the porno shop for her challenge... but I kinda see so much porno stuff on a regular basis anyways, I could probably have twirrled their heads with some of those toys I've played with!

So, I decided to go really light and just choose a male calendar... My God--I kinda wonder if May would have been scandalized by some of the leather and S&M stuff that some people in the gay community actually get into! Now those are some hard-core, heavy duty toys! Hehehehe


Moon. I'm pretty sure Moon will make it into the top 3. I'm also pretty sure she'll cry after banishments on friday. I would love to develop a friendship with her that often happens between girls and gay guys--one in which both end up learning from each other about stuff like how to deal with men, how to be more assertive, how to balance what your heart feels and what your brain tells you to do. I think she'll be the first person I'll probably meet in real life.


The Interrogator says:

If that is all we will talk again later.


Luke sniffles and says:

It's been a long day, and even though I'm feeling better, I should get a full night's sleep...

Thanks to all of you again for your support...


Luke heads out of the Red Room sneezing.

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Friday, October 27, 2000 - 04:09 pm Click here to edit this post
Fri, 27 Oct 2000 17:59:44 EDT

Luke saunters into the Red Room and sits down.

The Interrogator says:

Good morning Board Guest.

It is banishment time again. On the morn of a banishment date where everyone is up for nomination there is only one question to ask. How do you feel about it?


Luke smiles and says:

Honestly, I'm happy to have made it this far!

We have had a blast this past
week and we've all become very close. Tomorrow morning is going to be the most difficult banishment so far.

It's also the most difficult to predict. Luke and Roger each got about 20% of the vote last time. Vyk has had his troubles in the past week. Moon and I weren't up last time, so it's hard to tell. It could go any way! I don't want to lose anyone but that's part of the game. And I certainly don't want to go!! I just hope I make it to the final three.

I think the last two days of the game will be a great experience. I just hope I around to experience it!! Thanks to all my fans....you guys are great!!


The Interrogator says:

If that is all, we will talk again later.


Luke smiles and ambles out of the room.