A thought / prayer / poem for Cantor Fitzgerald?
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Whit4you

Thursday, September 12, 2002 - 11:07 pm EditMoveDeleteIP
I'm not a poet... a writer and certainly not a priest...

but I think anyone who's been here for the past year or so.. anyone who knows me knows how touched I've been and how much I care about their losses...

if I could I'd devote a few dozen years to expressing that and honestly... I hope to do so...


but for now...


I'm asking for you to close your eyes and imagine your job..imagine losing all those around you all those you know all those you care about ...all in an instant and it just being a blip .. on the national news scene...

If you were lost or it were your son/ daughter/ hubby / wife / mom / dad's company you are imagining..

how would you express it...


I've written a # of poems in my life only a few I even saved..

"Are all children as sad as I,
when they dream of freedom do they cry......"

first few lines of the first poem I ever wrote that I kept....

"A child was born in 64
she knew not what life had in store..."

fist few lines of my 2nd poem that I ever kept...

It bothers me alot .. and no matter how much I try not to think of it and how much I thihk that I have the rest my life to deal with it and make it right...

it still bothers me that the biggest loss to an innocent business.. is just a blip on the screen... now... and was THEN..

I'd like to think others care about Cantor..and like to think others have thoughts to express...


This might sound melodramatic but trust me .. it's beyond tame to how I realy feal and how I'd really like to express my thoughts on this.

I'm just happy that I've made the decision the past month .. to avoid thinking about this and dealing with this as mch as I can because .. I hve the rest my life to deal with it - I don't need to deal with it on some-one else's time frame.

Here's the bottom line I have 50,000 other things to say but .. I don't think I should.... if you feel for the worst tragedy to ever befall a company and the fact that the entire loss is just a blip and the individual losses are a blip ont hat blip...then perhaps you can share how YOU would feel if it were YOUR mom/ dad / bro / sis / hubby /wife / son / daughter / best friend that was a blip on a blip on a planned anniversary......

sigh...

Folks just know this I've went so far outta my way in every way possible to not deal with .. think about 9-11 it'd take a book just to explain the hoops I've went through to avoid this.....

I'm trying.. but

if you gotta story / poem or some thoughts for those lost at Cantor ...

Shoofly

Friday, September 13, 2002 - 12:07 am EditMoveDeleteIP
Whit,

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I try and there are NO words to describe their loss, singular, collective, NONE.

It was the interview with Larry King.....

It was the seeming dissertion, taken as untimely betrayal; misunderstandings and, truth, finally revealed,of the heart of a man and his company.

Extending beyond family to 'families', within and without.

It is the resurrection, the holding out to hope and rising above.

It is the love of life, of fellow man, of a country shared; and a God, that may even have shed a tear of joy. At the proof of what He has taught the world, being possible.

Whit4you

Friday, September 13, 2002 - 12:20 am EditMoveDeleteIP
I dunno saying there are no words to describer it.. to me ARE words to describe it....

Shoofly

Friday, September 13, 2002 - 12:27 am EditMoveDeleteIP
For me, Whit, there is no finding of the right words. That was my meaning. If I confused ya, it proves my point.

But, I know this is very close to your heart.

To help me try to make sense of it last year, I made quilts for the children left behind in that company. It did help me; I have no idea about how it extended.

Whit4you

Friday, September 13, 2002 - 12:53 am EditMoveDeleteIP
Those lost ta Cantor Fitzgerald matter to me... and I know that they matter to others.. I think that Shoo spoke for alot in that so many think that they have no words that will mattter so they won't bother...

I have the rest of my life ahead of me and within a few years can spend all my time making a difference somewhere and in some way and I know more causes and important things then I could mention.

I'm just one person what can I do .. nothing. I could spend the rest of my life expressing how I feel about the loss they had and it would not even put a dent in how they feel or how they see their loss..and that is sad..but it's the only thing that kept me from going into the depths of deprssion the past few weeks.. knowing no matter how I felt ..thought or expressed my feelings on 9-11 it'd not matter in any way.. and I hvae the rest of MY life to deal with it so I can do so when the time is right for me.


But I'm just not willing to let Cantor go.. I feel they deserver more then a little 2 minute blurb here and there..

so even if .. "I have no words" is all you can say it's something.. it really is.. trust me I have NO words to every express how I really feel about Cantor and that'd be even with me typing 200,000 words... so yes I think saying no words can express how I feel ..are words.. to express how you feel......


sigh.

gimme a few hundred years and I wil get over the Cantor fitzgerald loss..till then I do all I can to not bring anyone else down by talkin bout it ..and I've done darn good at that.....but...right now I just gotta say ..they do matter and I don't think I'm alone in feeling like they do matter and are not just a little blip on the scene in the past few years...

Aria

Monday, September 16, 2002 - 10:57 pm EditMoveDeleteIP
Whit, I've been away from the boards for awhile and just noticed this thread. I too was/am touched by the losses at Cantor and every other company in the WTC.

I don't know if you were fortunate enough to see the profiles of Cantor done on CNBC this past 9/11 but they really had some wonderful stories. I was really heartened to hear how they have fought back and recorded record earnings this past year. To quote a Cantor employee from the UK, since they pledged 25% of earnings to the victims families, they had to make sure that the 25% mean't something.

When I think of 9/11 I often think of Cantor. I'm glad others do as well.