Snogrl | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 02:41 am  Eddie has been giving Josh water to help him out with all the drinking. He now wants to tell Eddie how this girl he loved broke his heart. Eddie tells him he wants to hear it but maybe he better wait till tomorrow. Josh says no, he wants to tell it now, or he never will. Eddie tells him "Look we are getting out of here in 48 hrs". This discourages Josh from telling. He goes on to tell him how just before he came in to the BB house he gave her back a promise ring he had given her, and she was trying to return it to him. Eddie asked if he is happy with his decision of giving it back to her. He said it was smart of him. He knows it would be the worst thing in the world for him to be with her, but he thinks about her in the sense that he hopes it won't be painful for her for him to be there (in BB house). She came back to him 3-4 times asking to get back together with him. He said he can't trust her, but he said no he loves her so much he can't afford to be hurt by her again. He feels guilty he can't share this experience with her, it would destroy his own life. This is killing him because he is so loyal, and he has always shared everything good with her but he knows he can't any longer. Josh told RR his heart has been broken more often than he has broken hearts. Although this summer the heartache he caused to her is worst he has ever caused. Eddie thankfully, convinced him not to share what it was she had done to him. Just thought I'd convey this conversation |
Lancecrossfire | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 02:46 am  It is possible this is Josh's secret?? If it isn't the one he referred to in the beginning, it certainly qualifies as one he has kept till now. If it wasn't for it being on the live feeds, I am confident that Eddie would have kept it to himself. (at least I hope he would). There may be a "few" people who are aware of it at this point. |
Snogrl | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 02:55 am  My post prob. should have been under Live Feeds but I was over on this board. I know I was rambling so: Gist of conv. - Josh loved this girl, she did something to him that seems to have devestated him, they end up breaking up, she tries to get back together with him, even though he will always love her he can't trust her and he knows they will never be together, he does not want to hurt her as he has a strong sense of loyalty. Eddie strongly encouraged him not to tell what it was she had done to Josh. Josh said the pain of this probably caused his drinking tonight. |
Lancecrossfire | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 03:08 am  Snogrl--thanks for keeping us informed on this!! |
Charlotteindigo | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 03:09 am  Maybe this has been what Josh has been carrying around with him all summer. He always seemed a bit sad to me. |
Ricmunoz | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 03:32 am  Charlotte: I transcribed as much as I could in the Live Feeds about this and it really sounded like this has been the most profound source of his bouts of melancholia. The tone of pain in his voice rang pretty true to me. |
Snogrl | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 03:45 am  Ricmunoz, I agree he did sound in pain. The combination of Josh's vulnerability and Eddie's tenderness toward him was moving. |
Nance | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 08:38 am  It was wrentching. I was glad Eddie did comfort him and ask him to talk about it later. I also think this is what Josh has been carrying around with him,sounded like an awful lot of hurt pent up there. |
Whatever | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 09:13 am  Thanks for posting about Josh' revelation! Another thread you may find interesting: "How to understand Josh" http://www.bomis.com/bigbrother/discus/messages/65/5779.html?970157514 |
Elisa | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 09:55 am  Josh has told this story before. She cheated on him. I don't remember who he told it too but I do believe he'd been drinking. |
Chixdigeddie | Thursday, September 28, 2000 - 10:05 pm  yes..in the story josh said that one time when he and his gf were in separate cities that he admitted to her that he had flirted heavily with someone else, she got mad at him for that,gave him all kinds of hell about it and then later he found out that she had cheated on him during the same time period..this crushed him and made him realize he couldn't trust her |