Author |
Message |
Meme9
Member
07-30-2001
| Wednesday, November 14, 2007 - 9:22 pm
Still doing ok here. I'm sure at some point the white-knuckling will kick in, and it will probably be a big one. I'm trying my best to blow stress off, and not let other people stressing get me to stressing!! So far, so good. Dh will be leaving tomorrow afternoon, and probably won't return until Saturday morning at the earliest. If everything goes well at work, these could be good days. Well, even if things pop up at work, I usually handle them fine(dh stresses and panics, then he makes me stress). So, emergencies I do well...it's after that that I want to chill, and that will be when I want a cig. I really don't want to quit, I really enjoy smoking too. But, I'm tired of paying a fortune for health insurance. Why don't they charge stupid people more, or clumsy people, or drinkers, or people who don't eat the veggies, or...well, you get the idea! This is my only vise...don't laugh! It's time, and I'll give it up. Gosh, I may be a little cranky. Insurance talk always gets me cranky! I hope Pamy is hangin in.
|
Juju2bigdog
Member
10-27-2000
| Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 7:39 am
To all of you new quitter, all of us old quitters said the same thing. We smoked because we enjoyed it. We wished we could smoke forever with no consequences. But the consequences just kept building up, and the older we got the more bothersome the consequences got. Plus, society just kept making it harder and harder. After a while, we ended up out in the wind and cold blowing rain "enjoying ourselves." Huh? If you stay quit long enough you may eventually come to the realization that you were not smoking because you enjoyed it but you were smoking because you HAD to, to stave off the withdrawal symptoms that come from not smoking. Right now you are suffering bigtime withdrawal, but if you get free, you won't have to suffer it again ever. Unless you screw up and confuse comfort and addiction again. In which case, you get to start all over again ... Good luck to all the new quitters.
|
Retired
Member
07-11-2001
| Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 4:33 pm
What Juju said. 
|
Meme9
Member
07-30-2001
| Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 6:23 pm
I've done well all day...NOW is when I want one. I'm not going to! I keep telling myself it will pass. This is my worst time of day. I usually didn't smoke much during the day and only a few in the evening, but since I've been having health issues, my smoking increased at an alarming rate. That is one of the reasons I have to stop this behavior. A pack used to last about 4 days, and recently I was smoking a pack a day. I know this may not sound like much, but for me it was a lot. I just realized I was looking for comfort. The cigs will not make the pain stop, or even ease it. Pamy, is your new job keeping you busy or did your dh lock you up somewhere until your urges passes? Thanks guys!
|
Lumbele
Member
07-12-2002
| Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 6:46 pm
Meme, I bet Pamy is replacing cigs with her fave thing to do, Wednesday or not. You are doing good, great determination. You'll get this monkey off your back in no time. Hang in there, try a celery stick tonight.
|
Pamy
Member
01-02-2002
| Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 7:32 pm
LOL....my new job did keep me busy... from 4am to 630pm I had 3 cig today...mostly just some puffs, dont taste good....i am wking on the trigger times...got gum......I know I am supposed to be off totally but for me this is huge and I am happy with my progress
|
Twinkie
Member
09-24-2002
| Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 8:33 pm
Pamy, I think you are doing great! It is a huge thing and you are definitely making progress. There's no set time to quit completely. You'll do it when you are ready. Meme, you are doing great, too! I know how tough cold turkey is and I don't envy you at all.
|
Nickovtyme
Member
07-29-2004
| Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 9:12 pm
As much as I hate to admit it...and y'all have probably figured it out... I started back. I made it 9 months...and it's an excuse, maybe a lame excuse...but with all that's going on...I had a weak moment and BAM! I plan on quitting again as soon as I get moved. I really hate disappointing y'all.
|
Lumbele
Member
07-12-2002
| Friday, November 16, 2007 - 7:10 am
Pamy, keep hanging in. The moment for the final *last* cigarette will come and you'll recognise it. Meme, my hat's off to you for going cold turkey. Been there, done that, flunked every time. You're da bomb! Nick, don't do that to yourself. We've all fallen off the wagon at one time or another. We get it. So, don't put the pressure of disappointing *us* on yourself. You aren't, but I know that as soon as you are ready you'll do the deed again - for good and make us *proud* of you. Good luck on the whole house sale/purchase and move fiasco. May you have the opportunity soon to laugh about all the snags and snafus that seem so overwhelming right now.
|
Holly
Member
06-19-2005
| Friday, November 16, 2007 - 7:50 am
Hi Nick. It happens to the best of us, so don't beat yourself up. You did great, lasting nine months which only proves you can do it again. The key to this is learning from that moment of weakness. Nicotine addiction is insiduous and sneaky and will raise it's ugly head during stressful times, even years after you quit (for some of us). Whenever it happens to me and I light up, coming to the realization that I don't feel any better but actually feel worse from smoking again, helps me to continue the battle. But the sooner you quit again, the easier it will be to get back to where you were. See it as a MINOR slip-up in a much bigger battle you are winning. Nine months VS a few days??? Pfffttt...I'd say you're still ahead! I hope your house sale goes through and you'll soon be sitting in a new home, smoke-free once again. My best to you and your family.
|
Juju2bigdog
Member
10-27-2000
| Friday, November 16, 2007 - 7:58 am
Sorry to hear that, Nick. As Holly said, nicotine addiction IS very insidious. It makes you think it is comforting you, when, in fact it is actually raising your blood pressure and stressing out your body during times of emotional stress. It is a most peculiar drug. You know intellectually that you have to give up that expensive comforting little friend who is actually trying to murder you, so you will do it again when you can.
|
Retired
Member
07-11-2001
| Friday, November 16, 2007 - 2:16 pm
Again, what Juju said. She always says things so much better than I can. 
|
Twinkie
Member
09-24-2002
| Friday, November 16, 2007 - 2:24 pm
Nick, you sure don't disappoint me. I know how freaking hard this is. Its hard everyday for me. I'm just hoping I can hang in until its no longer hard. You'll quit again and maybe it will be easier when you aren't so stressed out over housing.
|
Meme9
Member
07-30-2001
| Friday, November 16, 2007 - 6:07 pm
I was good all day again. Until this evening, I lite one...took a couple puffs...well, maybe a few. It really didn't taste so good. Which is a good thing, because now I'm thinking I'm not missing much. Now, I'm hoping I keep feeling that way. I'm counting that cig as a reminder to WHY I'm quitting. Oh, and what Juju said up there!
|
Goddessatlaw
Member
07-19-2002
| Saturday, November 17, 2007 - 12:07 pm
Nick, enjoy it while you can because you know you're just going to quit again LOL. No worries, you know you can do it now. You've already picked your correct time to quit again and I'm sure you'll make it count this time. Pamy, you're doing fabu. Just like I knew you would. As far as the last cigarette goes, you're already to the point where you can physically quit - at least based on my experience, you're big withdrawal is over. Prolly just setting a day out in the near future and sticking with it will help you concentrate on making that last hurdle. After that it's all about telling yourself "No" about 500 times per day. Sigh. I wish I were kidding. I sound like a 2-year-old talking to myself some days. Juju, you shouldn't come in here and talk common sense to a pack of jonesing addicts like us. You made me nostalgic for the sub-zero nic-fests with my SIL outside the back door of her home every Christmas. Now she's going to be out there alone. In the dark. And the cold. And it's all my fault for quitting.
|
Juju2bigdog
Member
10-27-2000
| Saturday, November 17, 2007 - 8:50 pm
Highly inconsiderate of you, GAL, highly inconsiderate. I recommend you go out there and freeze your ass off for solidarity and old times sake just so you can one more time experience all the enjoyment you used to know back in the good old days. And if it's not snowing, raining, or slushy out there, throw a bucket of water over yourself before you go out just so you get the full joy of the experience that has been so rudely yanked from you.
|
Goddessatlaw
Member
07-19-2002
| Sunday, November 18, 2007 - 8:25 am
ROFFLLL and BAh Hah!@!! But no. I've advised Wendy she is required to quit also, she already has a prescription to Chantix. Because I don't deserve to suffer alone, as they say misery loves company.
|
Twinkie
Member
09-24-2002
| Sunday, November 18, 2007 - 11:44 am
Hey, I won't have to spend time in a cold garage during Thanksgiving or Christmas! And since I was the only smoker I was out there alone.
|
Seamonkey
Moderator
09-07-2000
| Sunday, November 18, 2007 - 12:06 pm
You all ROCK!! Nick, I know you'll stop again.. just the fact that you reported in here tells me that!
|
Meme9
Member
07-30-2001
| Sunday, November 18, 2007 - 5:52 pm
Well, I haven't been perfect. I had one Saturday and one today. This was much better than a pack per day. It's been rocky and I've been grumpy. I'm still working on my triggers.
|
Goddessatlaw
Member
07-19-2002
| Sunday, November 18, 2007 - 6:52 pm
Memes, get used to the grumpy it stays around awhile. I've been downright pissed for about 6 weeks now, and I make sure everyone knows it. Oh, and Christmas is going to be hard. It's the big family Christmas where we have the cousin's party, and most of my cousins smoke. I haven't really tested myself around other smokers. I'll be even more pissed, but I don't think I'll be tempted to screw myself by smoking. I'll just make sure they all pay with their emotional well-being by the end of the night. Oh, and I'll tell them they prolly also have the same blood disorder that made me quit. Because it's true.
|
Stacey718995
Member
07-06-2007
| Sunday, November 18, 2007 - 7:28 pm
Good luck to you all, I just saw this thread in passing. I smoked for 13 years and June 9th it was one year for me. I remember the crankies well. You know for me at least it almost made me feel nauseous to be around other smokers, during the first 6 months. I am not saying this is a good feeling but it never made me want to smoke honestly. I recently had lap band surgery and since I am limited to how much food I can intake for some reason it has increased my wanting to smoke again. I think I will always wish that I could be one of those people that can just casually have a smoke, but i know I can't. It really does get better, the difference in how I feel in the morning is so amazing. Hugs and happy bit**y thoughts to you all!
|
Juju2bigdog
Member
10-27-2000
| Sunday, November 18, 2007 - 8:17 pm
You are very wise, Stacey. There is no such thing as one cigarette. Speaking of which, I wonder how LL is doing? She knows that one cigarette thing very well.
|
Stacey718995
Member
07-06-2007
| Sunday, November 18, 2007 - 11:15 pm
I totally forgot I was going to give you all a tip on something that helped me. I tried the pills and the gums and patches, cold turkey is the only thing that worked for me. But, I did do this...people (my parents) kept talking to me about how I was helping my health, I remember thinking the heck with my health, I was so mad I quit and a friend of mine gave me a suggestion. She had me put in a jar the price of a pack of a cigarettes each day as I smoked a pack a day. I normally was a carton buyer but it helped to see the cash build daily. At any rate, as soon as it showed something substantial I went and treated myself to something goofy and frivolous. It was sometimes shoes, sometimes dinner and drink out, no rhyme or reason to what it was. It really helped me the first several months. Once I finally got over that hump I started saving the money but if I had to do it again I would do this step, when I was mad at the world and wanted to smoke new shoes helped my mood pass! The real point is find what works for you and stick with it. Everyone had ideas and suggestions for me and I wanted to punch most in the face at the time. My heart goes out to ya! Thanks JuJu you are very right!
|
Meme9
Member
07-30-2001
| Monday, November 19, 2007 - 9:04 am
LOL GAL, six weeks of pissy. I'm proclaiming today as one big pissed off day, and I may let others know it. LOL
|
|